Some people experience it.
Others never seem to know doubt.
We respect confidence. We like confident people. We often follow them. Most people would say that confidence is a good thing. It certainly feels good to be confident.
But…..it’s not so simple.
I spent 40 years in the field of medicine. For the most part I stayed out of trouble. One thing that helped me….. was doubt……..the ever present thought that my diagnosis might be wrong…….that I might be wrong…….and hurt someone. The last step in my decision making process was to ask…….”what are the ways that I could be wrong……..and what are the consequences of each specific error”. This final step forced me to reconsider answers and outcomes that I thought were wrong……..just in case they were right. Often, it led to additional tests……..just to confirm my suspicions. But, on more than one occasion, this final step saved my patient from harm.
If you take a room full of experts and give them a difficult problem, the guy who gives you an answer and is absolutely confident………is probably the dumbest guy in the room…….because he has stopped thinking. The guy who harbors doubt…….is still thinking.
There are two things to consider.
For the Christian, doubt is OK. It is OK to ask…….is this whole Bible thing legit? God can handle your doubt. He will answer your doubts……and the answer is right there in the “owner’s manual”. Even Jesus asked his father……”Why have you forsaken me?” The key is to keep thinking…….to keep searching……..and, most important of all, to search in the right places. Because, if you exclude sources that you don’t agree with, you will be ignorant………and sometimes…….you will be wrong.
For the non-believer…….the secular humanist……..the key is to respect your doubt. If you are so sure that God is a myth…….that you have stopped searching…….then you may be like the guy in the room who has stopped thinking. You may be that supremely confident guy…….the dumbest guy in the room. My hope is that you will keep questioning…….keep seeking………keep doubting.
The final point in my decision making process was to weigh the consequences of being wrong. And often there was more than one way to be wrong. This is especially important when you just cannot be sure. Because the consequences of the God vs. accident decision are the greatest consequences that you will ever face.
There is some ambiguity in the God vs. accident decision. Both sides are confident. But, neither side has absolute proof of their position…….regardless of what they say. This is not an accident. God wants you to keep thinking. God wants you to come to him because you carefully considered the situation……..and chose him.
And so God gave you the gift……..of doubt.
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
David, ESV
And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”
Jesus, ESV